Depression Session-How to deal with depression.
- Lexi
- Apr 1, 2019
- 2 min read
I’m out of control I’m weak I’m defective I’m needy I’m fundamentally different from other people I’ve failed a lot/made a lot of mistakes I’m powerless I’m vulnerable I’m trapped/stuck I’m unlovable I’m ugly I’m worthless I’m controlling I’m selfish I’m not good enough I’m incompetent
"These thoughts ring a bell, after all everyone experiences some level of anxiety right?"
Wrong.
These are common thoughts or people with depression, you may feel like these thoughts continuously drown you.
Sometimes I think these thoughts and I just can't escape them.
As an eldest child, I sometimes feel like I carry too much weight for my body and that I put too much pressure on myself. I'm an overachiever. I'm really smart, I'm a swimmer and I play in music groups that take up nearly all of my free time. Basically, for me there's always further to go and I never really reach my goals; they just keep getting further away.
Another thing about me is that I keep things bottled up, I classify emotion as a weakness and therefore don't show when I am feeling pain or going through darkness. I just put on a brave face and carry on.
Carry on struggling.
People say that there is help, but I wouldn't want it if I needed it. As I say, I classify emotion as a sign of weakness. I'm actually sensitive but I don't show that. It makes me weaker. I appear to be a tough cookie, let's let things remain how they are for now.
I don't classify this as depression though, I only go through phases of feeling like this, maybe a three day period every 40 days or so. That's why I don't tell anyone, because by the time I've brought myself to tell someone; the darkness is gone.
I don't know if I'll publish this, but if I do, people will judge me and assume I'm this dark person who wants to end their life. Don't worry I don't. If I do publish this, I'll turn off commenting, maybe not actually if I'm feeling brave! But please don't judge me. Now that I've written this my dark thoughts have vanished, flowed out onto the paper.
Anyway, that's my experience with depression, now you.
If you have these thoughts then the very first step is:
to remove some of the negative phycological power by realising that these thoughts are actually common and everyone does have them.
Then try and work out any triggers, think about what causes these episodes or particularly dark patches. Think deeply and carefully about any possible triggers.
Next test the validity of these secret fears, chances are that it's all in your head and these things aren't really real.
Finally learn how to replace these 'junk thoughts' with positive ones, this is probably the hardest step as getting away from a dark place can be particularly hard for some people.
If you're looking for help try the below link:
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